Times like these need to be written.
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Maybe this is me being insane but I realized, while staring at columns and rows of information that I needed to get done by end of the day, that I'm not in the mood for love because I don't know how worthy I am to love and be loved in return. It's come to a point where I do double takes because thinking things through affords me so much more insight rather than jumping in head first in any situation. There's this feeling in the air that I can no longer survive on luck.
While I have to admit that I continue to search for validation in others, it's self-validation that I'm clearly lacking. My guts are telling me I've done good, but I refuse to just sit and rest on my laurels. It's not that time.
All these thoughts come from a question burning in my head because Saturday happened and I wondered why it's fairly easy for someone to forget that one thing I asked. Maybe I've been putting too much emphasis on what people could do for me at this time. Don't get me wrong. I understand the predicament and I accept that I am not top of head. And maybe I've been looking for validation from the wrong people. But I wonder, am I that forgettable?
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